Thursday, January 13, 2005

rays of reflection by ssilence

I'm at the end of the first week of second semester, and old tendencies are attempting to break through as I look at the work ahead of me, I'm tempted to panic, especially when I consider the time factor of work, and the little things around the house that need to get done. I have in past years felt the only way to prove myself was to push myself harder and harder academically... and so I would panic over school work. I've since learned that I need to let of of proving myself through my school work, let go of proving worth through my GPA and instead studying for the benefit of increasing wisdom and knowledge... and my spiritual life as Kevin Faucett taught us today (wish I could get the power point on that chapel, I love it when he speaks).
I haven't written much partially because of the reading load that got dumped on me at the beginning of the week, but also because I haven't had much to say. Christmas was simplistic, which was good, needed just to chillax. But also God has been reiterating a few things to me. At the beginning of the school year he used a mentor to speak to me, telling me not to be in a hurry to do, but hurry to hear and wait in His presence . He is urging that message again, to listen, to wait on Him. And I am excited to do that, last semester I needed to step away from the rush of everything, took a lighter semester. This semester I am excited to bring that aspect of focusing on God back into a regular work load, to listen to God in class, in school work, maybe even the dish pit (goodness knows he's spoken to me there before) as well as in my personal time with Him.
Besides that, it is bloody cold outside, in fact its pretty cold inside... it's just cold. Anyhow I've got some reading to do before I run off to the dishpit!